Gaming: Good Stress Reliever or Badly Addictive?

Been a while since I last blogged about nearly anything after my last entry in my last blog on January 2006. I have been pretty much on a roller coaster ride in my life. Lots of things have been going on at home back in Jakarta, my current stay with my uncle and work-life (which really sucks in a way, but at the same time, I am enjoying every moment of this).

Those factors above has been draining my energy to a certain degree that I can't seem to recover, except when I started to play games. I know that I can be a pretty much game freak, but really, without it, I may have fallen into an insanity drive due to the build-up of stress. After thinking for a while, the games may have been giving me an additional worry: My sleep time. I have been playing games for a while now that I kept on playing and playing till the wee hours of the morning. As a result, I am pretty much tired and bushed every time I get to work.

Although I swore to sleep at 11PM every day, it seems that my so-called stress-release activity turns out to be a dangerous addiction for my own good. In the end, I am still addicted even till this day. Even after this revelation was made to be realised just a few days ago, I still went on with my game addiction because of one factor: I have no idea how to spend my time other than to play games after my work.

Of course, that raises the question on why I can still play my games even after a tiring day of work. I realised why only when I went back home from my office. As I took bus from my office, the moment I sat myself on the seat of the bus, I started snoozing with my MP3 player playing those lullaby-type songs. As I went back during the peak hours, the journey may take at least 1 1/2 hours. With that amount of sleep in the bus, I am pretty much awake when I reached home. I have been trying in vain to try sleeping, but unfortunately, my eyes just can't seem to close. I think you may have the guess on how I tried my best to sleep: Playing games.

After thinking a lot for the past few days, although I may have liked to play games, I may have gone overboard with a percentage of my daily hours on games, even to the extent of sacrificing my sleeping hours for playing games.

Looks like I may need to change my gaming habits soon as now, my weekends are totally filled with games. I really need to live my life again. I have not been going to church for the past 2-3 months, and I really need to pick up my pieces of my life again.

One thing that I can make clear out of this resolution: Even when I am able to piece up my life and my hours soon, I will not steer away from gaming. To me, although I get addicted to it, it is, for me, one of the most effective way to get my stress out of my system. To tell you the truth, I am not really fond of dispensing those buildup stress on any human being. To me, that is something stupid to do.

Well, that is all for my current life right now. I am still pretty much alive and I hope that I can get this blog going again and not stopping like last time. Hopefully, this resolution will stand strong.